Sunday, February 14, 2010

My Best Superstar Part 2

Let's do a quick recap from My Best Superstar Part I.....

S stands for Soulful
Y stands for Youthful
L stands for Lovable
V stands for Victorious
I stands for Incredible
A stands for Adorable

On the previous post, I mentioned that Sylvia is really Incredible.. I was really really amazed and impacted by Sylvia.. and will show it on My Best Superstar Part II.

Dun just here me talk so much... the video clip posted above shows the different style of Sylvia's performance. She is capable of wowing everybody with the different side of her...

Saturday, May 03, 2008

Learning to give thanks in every circumstances

For those who have just read my blogs in 2006,

I was referring to my previous job in nursing. First of all, praise God for allowing me to graduate from Nanyang Poly Nursing. Considering that for so many yrs in student life, I used to be a lazy girl in school. I hated comprehension cos of so many words in the passage. Well, that was in the past! Thank God for showing me what it means to walk by the Spirit. I used to be a naughty girl who rejected God but now I know that He is my Saviour who can move the mountain.

Ppl have been asking if I can graduate how come I can't work as a nurse. I repeat this one more time. BEING A STUDENT AND A STAFF THERE IS TOTALLY DIFFERENT!! It is a vast differenence. Please don't call me nurse anymore!! cos it reminds me of a how

On the first year of nursing, after I graduated, everyday there were ppl scolding me. Fail fail fail!! The patients, the staff. errr.... irritating to think about it even now~~!In the first half year, I was at the orthopaedic trauma ward. This was a place where all the nasty ppl were. Patients with fracture due to accidents go to that ward. I had all the theories in my head but I have problem intergrating them into practise. PPl say keep practising. But tt's not the only reason, u can't force me to practise. If I dont' find out what is the missing problem, no matter how many times I pracitise, I still won't get it! I know the procedure!! It's the doing part.Because I made a lot of mistakes, so the manager threatened to kick me out of the hospital. But thankfully tt's not the case. Cos i'm bonded, I chose to cling on to that painful bond that I signed with SGH otherwise I had to pay.

Thank God that that was not the end of story! I guess thru this painful process, God has been moulding and shaping my character to keep on trusting God. Of course on and off, I have downfalls.

On the 2nd half yr of the first, I really want to thank God for placing me in a wonderful ward. Not cos the work got any easier, but cos I had a good manager. She took me for an appointment to check what was wrong with me. I went to see a Neuro psychologist. I took an IQ test. Well thank God it is within normal range. However, there is a slight deficit in my visual perception. That is not equal to poor eyesight. Basically, I have problem seeing the full picture of everything. I tend to miss out details. My short term visual memory is slightly below average cos I can't remember everything I see. So if you say tt I've poor memory, you are not wrong.

On the other hand, if you say that I have a good memory, you are also not wrong. cos I still had my auditory memory. I can remember things that I hear most. I can even remember what I hear many many yrs ago. Sometimes even in paragraph. Most of the time, I can remember numbers out loud very well. So when ppl I ask me for any kind of numbers, I can tell you straight. No wonder I can remember so many numbers. So ya praise God for this auditory memory which I will bang harder on that so no one can say tt i've poor memory.

I want to praise God for this manager of mine who managed to speak to the director of nursing.Tt's how I got into nursing administration. Still in SGH serving bond. Only thing is I am not a nurse. Which is very rare because most ppl who failed probation got terminated. But God has blessed me abundantly. Now I am secured with a job as an admin staff. However, still did not meet the criteria as an admin assistant.

So I got downgraded to a clerk. I was ashamed of that cos ppl looked down on me. So I hid it from my colleagues. And when my colleague told everyone. Man! that was embarassing. Well, praise God that I finally got confirmed!! So now I am perm staff who got secured with at job.
If I had not been confirmed, I wouldn't be able to go for mission trip this yr. So ya praise God.

So yes learn to count every blessings.

Ecc 12:1 says
Remember your Creator in the days of you youth. Before the days of trouble come and the days approaching (can't remember exactly) when you will say "I find no pleasure in them".

Yup so thank God for mission trip which teaches me to give thanks even more .cos my suffering here is nothing as compared to the Hmong Thais and Laos. So yes give thanks and praise God no matter what

On the 2nd half year, it was much better. Not because the job was any

What have I learnt about missions

Just in case u don't know, I don't normally blog at blogspot. Usually my blog is found at multiply.

If u want to, I can send u. Now my home computer is down so I can only blog at blogspot in my office cos it's the only recognised blog here.

Basically thru this trip. God has changed my perception on what worship is about.Worship is not all about singing songs, playing guitar and dancing. It is a continuous process.

I learnt a lot about being a true worshipper of Christ in Romans 12:1 -2.

We need to lay down lordships and personal rights before God and use our time we normally use ( usually the time I play computer games and watch TV) to spend time with God

What is the Issac have I held back? Ask God to search our hearts and surrender that to Him? My Issac may not be a son. It can be anything that surpasses God.

After that, we need to allow God to enter into our lives and change the way we think and behave to be more Christlike. We need to pray. No matter how good or bad our circumstances may be, we need to constantly give thanks and praise God. Only God can satisfy ur needs. Man may fail me but God will never fail me.He is my best friend. He loves me as who I am. It doesn't matter what I do.I hope tt God will always be my desire. Let's press on in prayer!!! ya?alright!!

I really hope that this year will be different year for me. Work over here is not easy. How I wish I could go back to student life. BUT..... NO I can't be drinking milk all the time. I should learn to take solid food now!!

Monday, July 10, 2006

One challenges after another

Aiyo!!! I really feel that this week will not be very good for me. Sometimes I really feel very gankor in this nursing line!! Fear of not been able to make it for my assessments - Urinalysis, blood glucose monitoring and esp. venepuncuture&cannulation. I really feel very uncomfortable learning new skills cos everytime need to find time to practise and practise. In school have plenty of time but in the ward itself, is there enough time for me to practise within a month? And my test is coming up in a month time. August! There are so many fears in working as a nurse. Fear of failing the test, fear of failing JCI thingy and fear of provision extension. Tmr still must take case. IR really don't like to take case. cos i hv to pass report. ppl's legal documents u know!! BUUUUUTTT!!!!! IN THE NAME OF JESUS I COMMAND ALL THE FEARS AND WORRIES TO STAY AWAY FROM ME. cos these fears are not of God, for these negative thoughts telling me tt I cannot make it are all lies. Yes! Lay down all the fears to God because He is control of everything. He is sovereign and the Lord of everytning including me and even my superiors. God can change anybody's hearts including my manager. Yup. Whatever fears I have, give it all to Him for He will take care of everything. Let God take care of it for He is a lot greater than anything. Remember this...... if God can guide me through my 3 yrs in NYP, I believe He will guide me through my 3 yrs bond with SGH. WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. If everyday I focus on my fears and worries, I'm gg to be very miserable. NO!!! No1!NO!!! There is no way Fear and worries are gg to overcome me. I will overcome it with the help of God. He that is in me is greater than ANYTHING tt's in the world. FEar not , God is with me. And there is one verse I'll take home with me. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!! I must claim these promises. EAsier said than done, but I have to apply it. For this is the real test!!

Friday, July 07, 2006

Work tmr!!!

From now on, I must learn to think positively and have a positive attitude towards learning and work. The important thing at work is to have a teachable heart. If I don't have a teachable heart, it will be very difficult for me to survive on my own. God will raise the humble and put the proud into shame. Yes it is gg to be stressful for me. But I'm not the only one facing it. All my friends are gg through it with me. Even my seniors like SW and M2 have been going through it and suceeded. If God can guide them through this path, I believe He will also guide me. I remember my friend, "I" also struggled through the posting. But in the end, she's progressing. The LOrd is merciful to her and merciful to me too. I must learn to be confident in the Lord. His Word is the lamp unto my feet and the light unto my path. So think about all the praiseworthy things. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Keep this in mind. Remember to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. Yup! Yup! Not easy, but must trust God. I must learn to thank God in every circumstances I am going through, whether good or bad. Yes must learn to thank God for the trials tt are coming my way. Because through these trials, my faith in Him will be built.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

I have exactly a month to blog!!

Haha......I am free to blog as much as I can so far. THis week is the 1st week of my orientation. Pretty fun though. It's something good for me to recap and catch up b4 I actually start work. Hmmmm......1st wk in SGH, not bad. Today I've learnt about pain management. How to assess PAIN. wow interesting, but I hope I'll know how to apply what I've learnt. I need the Lord to help me!! THis week is pretty relaxing. This Saturday will be a start of my clinical practise in the ward. Thank God it's half day and I have an off day on Sunday so I can go to church and see my friends in MHI!! yey!!!!!! I'm so happy I have a chance to be off for a day and a half!! Better than nothing.
Ok I need to enjoy the job God has given me. Everyday, He has shown me different things in the bible. I feel like reading more since I have time or should I read about pharmacology 1st? Hmmmm I know. I'll read pharmacology till about 1015 then I'll read another chapter of Genesis. It is very exciting to see how God works in different people's life. I believe He works in mine too!! Ja ne!! Will blog again another time!!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

New Challenges ahead

Hmmmmm.......after a test today. Ok not too bad. Thank God that I was doing alright. The LOrd is with me indeed. He has been with me always even during tests. Well, the test is over, I'm not gg to think about it now. I'm leaving the results to Him. Let God take care of it. For He is in control of everything. I believe that a God who has guided my for 3 years in NYP diploma in nursing, is the same God who has guided me through my test.
Right now, I am facing another challenge. or in 1 month time,I have to be tested on cannulation. NOT EASY!!!!! This is scary. I am really clumsy in practical and now I have to do this in the ward. Some more must take initiative to ask the sister or senior staff nurse to guide me and assess me. God pls help me!!!! Well, take heart, cos the God who guided me in my test today, will also guide me through my practice. I shall remember this statement: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH and HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME, MY STRENGTH IS MADE PERFECT WHEN I AM WEAK.

And lastly, a song to remember:
Jesus You're my firm foundation
I know I can stand secure
Jesus You're my firm foundation
I put my hope in Your Holy Word
I put my hope in Your Holy Word

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

test tmr

Haiz~~~~I never thought tt test will come even after I graduated. wahhhh!!! long time didn't blog so dun really know what to say here lol!!! anyways, I just need to go through it once more, and then tmr I go through again. Keep going Steph, you can do all things thru Christ who gives you strength. i really hope I will score well for this test. Sister may say it's not an easy paper, but I believe tt with God, all things are possible. I really hope I will do well. Yes I just repeated my self. Daijobu!!! It's alright to have a goal in mind, I mean it's good to, but don't make it sound as if it's the most important thing in the world. This is just to test how much I know about diabetes. Well, the sister has given me notes to study and tmr I just need to pay attention during lecture. Oh yes and don't forget to pray b4 going in cos I need God to help me. Without God I am nothing. Thank God for the notes. Right now, I must not be afraid of test. I just need to conquer it by studying!!!
I really hope I will do well that's all. Even if I don't, it's not the end of the world. My aim should not be gaining recognition and getting rewards.
Ahhh1!!!! I remember this song:
For the praises of men, I will never ever stand. For the kindoms of this world I'll never give my heart away or shout my praise. For my allegiance and devotion, my heart's desire and emotions, go to serve a Man who died upon that tree.
Only a God like You, could be worthy of my praise, all my hopes and faith, to only a King of all kings, do I bow my knee and sing, give my everything.To only my Maker, my Father, my Saviour, Redeemer, Restorer, REbuilder, REwarder, to only a God like YOu do I give my praise.
Must have this in mind. If not my life will will be meaningless without God.