Monday, July 10, 2006

One challenges after another

Aiyo!!! I really feel that this week will not be very good for me. Sometimes I really feel very gankor in this nursing line!! Fear of not been able to make it for my assessments - Urinalysis, blood glucose monitoring and esp. venepuncuture&cannulation. I really feel very uncomfortable learning new skills cos everytime need to find time to practise and practise. In school have plenty of time but in the ward itself, is there enough time for me to practise within a month? And my test is coming up in a month time. August! There are so many fears in working as a nurse. Fear of failing the test, fear of failing JCI thingy and fear of provision extension. Tmr still must take case. IR really don't like to take case. cos i hv to pass report. ppl's legal documents u know!! BUUUUUTTT!!!!! IN THE NAME OF JESUS I COMMAND ALL THE FEARS AND WORRIES TO STAY AWAY FROM ME. cos these fears are not of God, for these negative thoughts telling me tt I cannot make it are all lies. Yes! Lay down all the fears to God because He is control of everything. He is sovereign and the Lord of everytning including me and even my superiors. God can change anybody's hearts including my manager. Yup. Whatever fears I have, give it all to Him for He will take care of everything. Let God take care of it for He is a lot greater than anything. Remember this...... if God can guide me through my 3 yrs in NYP, I believe He will guide me through my 3 yrs bond with SGH. WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. If everyday I focus on my fears and worries, I'm gg to be very miserable. NO!!! No1!NO!!! There is no way Fear and worries are gg to overcome me. I will overcome it with the help of God. He that is in me is greater than ANYTHING tt's in the world. FEar not , God is with me. And there is one verse I'll take home with me. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!! I must claim these promises. EAsier said than done, but I have to apply it. For this is the real test!!

Friday, July 07, 2006

Work tmr!!!

From now on, I must learn to think positively and have a positive attitude towards learning and work. The important thing at work is to have a teachable heart. If I don't have a teachable heart, it will be very difficult for me to survive on my own. God will raise the humble and put the proud into shame. Yes it is gg to be stressful for me. But I'm not the only one facing it. All my friends are gg through it with me. Even my seniors like SW and M2 have been going through it and suceeded. If God can guide them through this path, I believe He will also guide me. I remember my friend, "I" also struggled through the posting. But in the end, she's progressing. The LOrd is merciful to her and merciful to me too. I must learn to be confident in the Lord. His Word is the lamp unto my feet and the light unto my path. So think about all the praiseworthy things. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Keep this in mind. Remember to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. Yup! Yup! Not easy, but must trust God. I must learn to thank God in every circumstances I am going through, whether good or bad. Yes must learn to thank God for the trials tt are coming my way. Because through these trials, my faith in Him will be built.

Thursday, July 06, 2006

I have exactly a month to blog!!

Haha......I am free to blog as much as I can so far. THis week is the 1st week of my orientation. Pretty fun though. It's something good for me to recap and catch up b4 I actually start work. Hmmmm......1st wk in SGH, not bad. Today I've learnt about pain management. How to assess PAIN. wow interesting, but I hope I'll know how to apply what I've learnt. I need the Lord to help me!! THis week is pretty relaxing. This Saturday will be a start of my clinical practise in the ward. Thank God it's half day and I have an off day on Sunday so I can go to church and see my friends in MHI!! yey!!!!!! I'm so happy I have a chance to be off for a day and a half!! Better than nothing.
Ok I need to enjoy the job God has given me. Everyday, He has shown me different things in the bible. I feel like reading more since I have time or should I read about pharmacology 1st? Hmmmm I know. I'll read pharmacology till about 1015 then I'll read another chapter of Genesis. It is very exciting to see how God works in different people's life. I believe He works in mine too!! Ja ne!! Will blog again another time!!

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

New Challenges ahead

Hmmmmm.......after a test today. Ok not too bad. Thank God that I was doing alright. The LOrd is with me indeed. He has been with me always even during tests. Well, the test is over, I'm not gg to think about it now. I'm leaving the results to Him. Let God take care of it. For He is in control of everything. I believe that a God who has guided my for 3 years in NYP diploma in nursing, is the same God who has guided me through my test.
Right now, I am facing another challenge. or in 1 month time,I have to be tested on cannulation. NOT EASY!!!!! This is scary. I am really clumsy in practical and now I have to do this in the ward. Some more must take initiative to ask the sister or senior staff nurse to guide me and assess me. God pls help me!!!! Well, take heart, cos the God who guided me in my test today, will also guide me through my practice. I shall remember this statement: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH and HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME, MY STRENGTH IS MADE PERFECT WHEN I AM WEAK.

And lastly, a song to remember:
Jesus You're my firm foundation
I know I can stand secure
Jesus You're my firm foundation
I put my hope in Your Holy Word
I put my hope in Your Holy Word

Tuesday, July 04, 2006

test tmr

Haiz~~~~I never thought tt test will come even after I graduated. wahhhh!!! long time didn't blog so dun really know what to say here lol!!! anyways, I just need to go through it once more, and then tmr I go through again. Keep going Steph, you can do all things thru Christ who gives you strength. i really hope I will score well for this test. Sister may say it's not an easy paper, but I believe tt with God, all things are possible. I really hope I will do well. Yes I just repeated my self. Daijobu!!! It's alright to have a goal in mind, I mean it's good to, but don't make it sound as if it's the most important thing in the world. This is just to test how much I know about diabetes. Well, the sister has given me notes to study and tmr I just need to pay attention during lecture. Oh yes and don't forget to pray b4 going in cos I need God to help me. Without God I am nothing. Thank God for the notes. Right now, I must not be afraid of test. I just need to conquer it by studying!!!
I really hope I will do well that's all. Even if I don't, it's not the end of the world. My aim should not be gaining recognition and getting rewards.
Ahhh1!!!! I remember this song:
For the praises of men, I will never ever stand. For the kindoms of this world I'll never give my heart away or shout my praise. For my allegiance and devotion, my heart's desire and emotions, go to serve a Man who died upon that tree.
Only a God like You, could be worthy of my praise, all my hopes and faith, to only a King of all kings, do I bow my knee and sing, give my everything.To only my Maker, my Father, my Saviour, Redeemer, Restorer, REbuilder, REwarder, to only a God like YOu do I give my praise.
Must have this in mind. If not my life will will be meaningless without God.