One challenges after another

Aiyo!!! I really feel that this week will not be very good for me. Sometimes I really feel very gankor in this nursing line!! Fear of not been able to make it for my assessments - Urinalysis, blood glucose monitoring and esp. venepuncuture&cannulation. I really feel very uncomfortable learning new skills cos everytime need to find time to practise and practise. In school have plenty of time but in the ward itself, is there enough time for me to practise within a month? And my test is coming up in a month time. August! There are so many fears in working as a nurse. Fear of failing the test, fear of failing JCI thingy and fear of provision extension. Tmr still must take case. IR really don't like to take case. cos i hv to pass report. ppl's legal documents u know!! BUUUUUTTT!!!!! IN THE NAME OF JESUS I COMMAND ALL THE FEARS AND WORRIES TO STAY AWAY FROM ME. cos these fears are not of God, for these negative thoughts telling me tt I cannot make it are all lies. Yes! Lay down all the fears to God because He is control of everything. He is sovereign and the Lord of everytning including me and even my superiors. God can change anybody's hearts including my manager. Yup. Whatever fears I have, give it all to Him for He will take care of everything. Let God take care of it for He is a lot greater than anything. Remember this...... if God can guide me through my 3 yrs in NYP, I believe He will guide me through my 3 yrs bond with SGH. WITH GOD, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE. If everyday I focus on my fears and worries, I'm gg to be very miserable. NO!!! No1!NO!!! There is no way Fear and worries are gg to overcome me. I will overcome it with the help of God. He that is in me is greater than ANYTHING tt's in the world. FEar not , God is with me. And there is one verse I'll take home with me. I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!! I must claim these promises. EAsier said than done, but I have to apply it. For this is the real test!!

Work tmr!!!

From now on, I must learn to think positively and have a positive attitude towards learning and work. The important thing at work is to have a teachable heart. If I don't have a teachable heart, it will be very difficult for me to survive on my own. God will raise the humble and put the proud into shame. Yes it is gg to be stressful for me. But I'm not the only one facing it. All my friends are gg through it with me. Even my seniors like SW and M2 have been going through it and suceeded. If God can guide them through this path, I believe He will also guide me. I remember my friend, "I" also struggled through the posting. But in the end, she's progressing. The LOrd is merciful to her and merciful to me too. I must learn to be confident in the Lord. His Word is the lamp unto my feet and the light unto my path. So think about all the praiseworthy things. I can do all things through Christ who gives me strength. Keep this in mind. Remember to take every thought captive to the obedience of Christ. Yup! Yup! Not easy, but must trust God. I must learn to thank God in every circumstances I am going through, whether good or bad. Yes must learn to thank God for the trials tt are coming my way. Because through these trials, my faith in Him will be built.

I have exactly a month to blog!!

Haha......I am free to blog as much as I can so far. THis week is the 1st week of my orientation. Pretty fun though. It's something good for me to recap and catch up b4 I actually start work. Hmmmm......1st wk in SGH, not bad. Today I've learnt about pain management. How to assess PAIN. wow interesting, but I hope I'll know how to apply what I've learnt. I need the Lord to help me!! THis week is pretty relaxing. This Saturday will be a start of my clinical practise in the ward. Thank God it's half day and I have an off day on Sunday so I can go to church and see my friends in MHI!! yey!!!!!! I'm so happy I have a chance to be off for a day and a half!! Better than nothing.
Ok I need to enjoy the job God has given me. Everyday, He has shown me different things in the bible. I feel like reading more since I have time or should I read about pharmacology 1st? Hmmmm I know. I'll read pharmacology till about 1015 then I'll read another chapter of Genesis. It is very exciting to see how God works in different people's life. I believe He works in mine too!! Ja ne!! Will blog again another time!!

New Challenges ahead

Hmmmmm.......after a test today. Ok not too bad. Thank God that I was doing alright. The LOrd is with me indeed. He has been with me always even during tests. Well, the test is over, I'm not gg to think about it now. I'm leaving the results to Him. Let God take care of it. For He is in control of everything. I believe that a God who has guided my for 3 years in NYP diploma in nursing, is the same God who has guided me through my test.
Right now, I am facing another challenge. or in 1 month time,I have to be tested on cannulation. NOT EASY!!!!! This is scary. I am really clumsy in practical and now I have to do this in the ward. Some more must take initiative to ask the sister or senior staff nurse to guide me and assess me. God pls help me!!!! Well, take heart, cos the God who guided me in my test today, will also guide me through my practice. I shall remember this statement: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THROUGH CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH and HIS GRACE IS SUFFICIENT FOR ME, MY STRENGTH IS MADE PERFECT WHEN I AM WEAK.

And lastly, a song to remember:
Jesus You're my firm foundation
I know I can stand secure
Jesus You're my firm foundation
I put my hope in Your Holy Word
I put my hope in Your Holy Word

test tmr

Haiz~~~~I never thought tt test will come even after I graduated. wahhhh!!! long time didn't blog so dun really know what to say here lol!!! anyways, I just need to go through it once more, and then tmr I go through again. Keep going Steph, you can do all things thru Christ who gives you strength. i really hope I will score well for this test. Sister may say it's not an easy paper, but I believe tt with God, all things are possible. I really hope I will do well. Yes I just repeated my self. Daijobu!!! It's alright to have a goal in mind, I mean it's good to, but don't make it sound as if it's the most important thing in the world. This is just to test how much I know about diabetes. Well, the sister has given me notes to study and tmr I just need to pay attention during lecture. Oh yes and don't forget to pray b4 going in cos I need God to help me. Without God I am nothing. Thank God for the notes. Right now, I must not be afraid of test. I just need to conquer it by studying!!!
I really hope I will do well that's all. Even if I don't, it's not the end of the world. My aim should not be gaining recognition and getting rewards.
Ahhh1!!!! I remember this song:
For the praises of men, I will never ever stand. For the kindoms of this world I'll never give my heart away or shout my praise. For my allegiance and devotion, my heart's desire and emotions, go to serve a Man who died upon that tree.
Only a God like You, could be worthy of my praise, all my hopes and faith, to only a King of all kings, do I bow my knee and sing, give my everything.To only my Maker, my Father, my Saviour, Redeemer, Restorer, REbuilder, REwarder, to only a God like YOu do I give my praise.
Must have this in mind. If not my life will will be meaningless without God.

A song to remember

I have made You too small in my eyes
O Lord, forgive me,
I have believed in a lie
that You were unable to help me
But now O Lord I've seen my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord be magnified
O Lord be magnifed

Be magnified O Lord
You are highly exalted
And there is nothing You can't do
O Lord my eyes are on You
Be magnified, O Lord be magnified

I have leaned on the wisdom of man
O Lord, forgive
and I have responded to them
Instead of Your light and Your mercy
But now O Lord I've seen my wrong
Heal my heart and show Yourself strong
And in my eyes and with my song
O Lord be magnified
O Lord be magnified

Be magnified O Lord
You are highly exalted
and there is nothing You can't do
O Lord my eyes are on You
Be magnified.....

OH LORD BE MAGNIFIED!!!
OH LORD BE MAGNIFIED!
OH LORD........BE.....MAG.....NI..FIED!

4th wk of prcp tmr

Happy Easter Day!!! hey today's easter sunday! What a joyful time to remember that Christ has risen from the dead!! well sad to say there are many a times when i forget the things He has done cos of work. Hmmmph so fast tmr monday already. Boo.....! I don't like attachment! I want to relax! I really want to play and go for a retreat! Well, in life everybody has 2 work. If not we cannot live in the society. I miss studying. I enjoy listening to lectures. I don't have so much complain in school than at work. Work is very different as I not only have to brush up on my skills, I also have to work with ppl and make friends w them. If not I'll face more alienation at work than a friendly enviroment. Most importantly, Christ has to be the centre of my life.
well I should thank God for the time I can relax for 4 days b4 work. He really is in time for my rest time. God really allowed me to rest so that I can go for Good Friday service and then Easter Sunday service. I get to rest on thursday while everyone else had to work on thurs and have 3 days of break and I have 1 extra day due to public holiday.
Right now my goal is to brush up on my skills. All I need to do is do my best for God's glory and leave the results to Him. As I have told Him b4 I don't care about being the best 5 to remain for 3 yrs in the same ward. The most important thing is to do my best and pass my prcp. If I can get pass this, I thank God already. Really hope to have a good time tmr. Go Steph 3 more wks to hold on to. I'll remember this verse: " I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength" I must claim this promises. Of course I don't just sit there. This means that, when I move, God will help me along. Yes I believe that His grace is sufficient for me and His strength is made perfect when I am weak

PRCP

Ok!!!! today is the 1st day of prcp. Something which I am looking forward for it to pass. I really how I can go through this 6 wk and learn as much as possible. Right now I am a bit sleepy to look at my learning guide. Lord!!!! Help me~~ ok 1st wk of posting is a bit senang!! out of these 5 days, 3 of them are orientation. Actually I'll be rather free in the afternoon. Morning throughout this whole 5 days!! wow!! I really pray for a good and responsible preceptor who will be patient with me. Oh man!! one of my classmates is in the same ward as me!! If I am not wrong I think my classmate who is joining me for prcp could be the top student. I won't blog the name down here to protect some privacy. Ok may this be a fruitful time for me to draw near to God. I really hope to see a breakthrough in my life through this posting. This is so wonderful!!

Alright!!!! 1st paper is over

Yes! my 1st paper is finally over!! Now it is time for me to study for nursing science. Sigh!! nursing management, most sickening module subject. Nv mind, i am not gg to allow negative thought to conquer me. If I have a positive attitude towards it, I shall not have problems with it. God is indeed with me. His grace is sufficient for me and my strength is made perfect when I am week, so why should I worry. Instead I shall cast every anxiety upon Him for He cares for me. Yes and I will always remember that: I CAN DO ALL THINGS THRU CHRIST WHO GIVES ME STRENGTH!!! Indeed, all things are possible thru Him. Without Him I wouldn't have done well with my ICA test for 3077. God is really a blessing to me. I felt really realxed when I did it . This boosts up my confidence for 3034!! Alright! Now I shall leave the results of 3076 into God's hands. I dared not guess the marks for now. Wait till I get the results. Let God suprise me in different ways!!

Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the earth hear His voice
Praise the Lord! Praise the Lord!
Let the ppl rejoice
Oh come to the Father,
Through, Jesus the Son
And give Him the glory
Great things He has

This is the day

CHORUS*
>THIS IS THE DAY, THAT THE LORD HAS MADE
I WILL REJOICE AND CELEBRATE
THIS IS THE DAY, THAT THE LORD HAS MADE
I WILL REJOICE, I WILL REJOICE AND CELEBRATE

HE GOES B4 ME
HE WALKS BESIDE ME
HE LIVES WITHIN ME
HE'S THE LOVER OF MY SOULS

HE'S MY DEFENDER
HE'S MY PROVIDER
HIS OVERFLOWING MERCIES
ARE BREND NEW EVERYDAY
(CHORUS)